July 28

I don't know what to tell you. I want to dedicate myself to you but I am living in constant fear that the world around me may come crashing down. I am weak and I can't handle it. I think I need time to myself and I just don't know why. I don't want to hurt you. In fact, the thought of you being hurt because of something I did breaks my very being. And I begin to feel a great big mixture of emotions that is one part love and two parts depression.