i didn't think telling you would ruin our friendship. i honestly thought everything would be normal. but you don't even look at me. am i really such a bad person? is hearing "i like you" from me that bad? i cant help but to think that i wont ever be your friend again, and that, that was our last hug. you are different from any guy i have ever talked to. everything used to be easy with you. but you made it all change from the moment you decided to avoid me. i'm sorry i should have never told you. can we just please forget this ever happened? really because not knowing what you think is really driving me insane, and i rather know you don't like me and get over you than never know.  and now i lost you. i'll probably be left without of piece of me and a broken heart, again. but don't worry you didn't cause this heartache i did. i just have to grow up, i know. and its a shame because after this i still see you as perfection in my eyes. you are kind, and gentle. you took the time to be my friend, to help me out. that was enough for me to see how great you are. but i cant help but to feel so pathetic because i'm crying over a guy, again. or more like i'm crying again because i got my hopes up. everyone think it will be all right, that it will be okay. but they don't know the truth they don't know how long i have kept this under the covers! you how no idea how incredibly hard it was for me to own up and tell you. i would have rather lived with the 'what if's' for the rest of the summer.