To: He, Him, and You.

i just want to break away, knowing this is all wrong, i'm over it. i'm done. i should just walk away. 

because now, every time i think of you, all i feel is sick. you didn't help me, and you broke all your promises. you left me when i needed you the most. how could you? i would have done anything for you. and look where i am now? next time i see you don't expect me to talk to you, even though we both know deep inside i'll be dying to say hello. 

you killed the last ounce of happiness in my heart you have no idea how long it has taken me to lean to truly smile again.

 i have fought will all my heart to stay whole, and i know this didn't mean much to you. and i only hope you don't find this so you never know how i feel.

 i constantly lie, i have never mentioned you name. nor do i dare to now. i wish things were differently. 

maybe someday we can actually be friends again, like old times. but wait was that just pretend? nah i don't think so, you were my best friend, and i wish it would have stayed that way.

 maybe then things wouldn't i have been ruined. look what i started. i actually find myself saying that a lot. look at what i caused. look what you made him do. i always start these chain reactions that end up in catastrophe. maybe that's my fate, to start things to make people think, don't you think? haha. what do you guys know. for all you care i could be dead. 

but i wont let the thought of you bring me down, no i wont stop and think of you anymore. you can kill yourself because i now know that i shouldn't care what happens to you.
well now that i'm trying to move on what is going to happen to that thing that kept me hanging on?
i'm so happy to say i found some one better than you, you, and you.
now my focus is on him. <3 p="">